Ending Session - Ghosts of the Girlfriends Past
The reason why I called this as an "Ending Session", will only be because I have decided to throw away another disastrous, heart-wrecking X-File right behind my ass. Well, It's just too bad that I met another bastard, who claimed that he truly understood what love is but apparently and Obviously, the answer is no.
I realized, as I have decided to call this "The End". I should not have said much and repeat the whole heart-breaking stories all over again.
I can not deliver myself to remember them and write them all over again. It has been going over for way too long. The only thing I can say that, I spent 3 years along in my late 20s, just to realize I have wasted my time with someone who... thought that he loved me enough to go through the one of the darkest moments. And there he was, left me all alone and left me to deal with those pains he had caused me.
I watched a movie through online "Ghosts of the Girlfriends Past". Needless for me to say more. All messages I want to deliver are in that movie.
The part that touched me is how that playboy, FINALLY understood the meaning of love and he brought his pride down, just to be with that someone he loves. All and all, my favorite line that he had said, right after he had enlightened is "You got to risk love, risk it!" , "Any pain that you feel, WILL NEVER ever compared to the regret, that point you are walking out from Love... Don't walk away"
For the last time, I want to say, that maybe those are the words, the reasons for me not to walk away from him even though he lied and cheated on me for good 6 times and more.That unbearable pain that I've got, I thought I don't want to regret for not loving him anymore. Well, unfortunately, in the end of the day, I still unsure if I was foolish enough, he still left me, selfishly to choose... loving himself.
I guessed, I have learnt by now. that I shall no longer allow myself to be the same. sometimes I wondered why many of my colleagues called me names like "ice Berg" or "Ice Queen", they always said I am a woman, who is "Unapproachable and Untouchable". Or sometimes, I even wondered why my gal friends, kept saying I have changed. I am no longer smiling, laughing, joking... they don't see my life as blissful as the first time they knew me or when I first told them that I fell In Love.
Now I know why.
It's time to say "Good-Bye" to my past now. My life begins at 29. My One last year as a woman in her 20s. It's time move on.
But this time round, it will be different. I will never give anyone a single chance to hurt me... to get into me. And I guessed, the Leoda, people used to know; as being a warm person, and often given a nickname as the "Sunshine girl", will never be as one anymore.
It's Cold.
The End,
Leoda
I realized, as I have decided to call this "The End". I should not have said much and repeat the whole heart-breaking stories all over again.
I can not deliver myself to remember them and write them all over again. It has been going over for way too long. The only thing I can say that, I spent 3 years along in my late 20s, just to realize I have wasted my time with someone who... thought that he loved me enough to go through the one of the darkest moments. And there he was, left me all alone and left me to deal with those pains he had caused me.
I watched a movie through online "Ghosts of the Girlfriends Past". Needless for me to say more. All messages I want to deliver are in that movie.
The part that touched me is how that playboy, FINALLY understood the meaning of love and he brought his pride down, just to be with that someone he loves. All and all, my favorite line that he had said, right after he had enlightened is "You got to risk love, risk it!" , "Any pain that you feel, WILL NEVER ever compared to the regret, that point you are walking out from Love... Don't walk away"
For the last time, I want to say, that maybe those are the words, the reasons for me not to walk away from him even though he lied and cheated on me for good 6 times and more.That unbearable pain that I've got, I thought I don't want to regret for not loving him anymore. Well, unfortunately, in the end of the day, I still unsure if I was foolish enough, he still left me, selfishly to choose... loving himself.
I guessed, I have learnt by now. that I shall no longer allow myself to be the same. sometimes I wondered why many of my colleagues called me names like "ice Berg" or "Ice Queen", they always said I am a woman, who is "Unapproachable and Untouchable". Or sometimes, I even wondered why my gal friends, kept saying I have changed. I am no longer smiling, laughing, joking... they don't see my life as blissful as the first time they knew me or when I first told them that I fell In Love.
Now I know why.
It's time to say "Good-Bye" to my past now. My life begins at 29. My One last year as a woman in her 20s. It's time move on.
But this time round, it will be different. I will never give anyone a single chance to hurt me... to get into me. And I guessed, the Leoda, people used to know; as being a warm person, and often given a nickname as the "Sunshine girl", will never be as one anymore.
It's Cold.
The End,
Leoda
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